The theme for our photos this week was “creativity,” so I used a picture of a bunch of zippers I’ve bought for my projects. The red is for a skirt (or a mockup of one), the light gray is for the same skirt but with photo-printed fabric, the minty tealsy one is for a pillow, and the black is for a makeup pouch.
It’s my tenth weekly wishes post! Does that mean I’ve had this blog for ten weeks? It still feels so new — in a good way. In a very good way. But it’s also becoming habit and therefore easier, though last week was a light one again. I posted:
last week’s wishes
I resolved to:
- Dust off the sewing machine
Shoot an outfit Mail shit and contact people
- Catch up on product shooting
- Tidy my closet
2 out of 5 is… something? I didn’t contact all the people I need to get in touch with, and I have to pick up and mail some prints today, but I shipped like six parcels and collected some reward info from campaign contributors, so I’m calling it a win. I did laundry, too! And I did shoot some stuff, and I signed up for the Yuletide small-fandom fic exchange (my very favorite part of Christmas) and wrote my Dear Author (This Is What I’d Like To Read) letter, which was harder than I anticipated. It took a lot of telling myself to just write one word and then write another. I’ve barely written five sentences of fiction this year altogether, I haven’t read a book since January, and until Friday, I hadn’t seen an episode of TV in one sitting (or at all) since March. It took a bit of effort to kickstart that part of my brain again.
(Select people will be happy to hear I’m initiating my journey back into regular TV watching by catching up on Elementary. At the rate of one episode a day during dinner, I’ll be up to date at some point in mid or late November. I’m okay with that.)
Tidying my closet is still one of the most terrifying tasks I have on my list, and I think it would benefit from being broken down into smaller tasks, like “bag stuff for donation,” “make a pile of everything that can be repurposed/upcycled,” “go on another hunt for a basket to organize my fabric,” that sort of thing.
this week’s wishes
Everything I have to do would probably be easier if I laid it out properly and analytically, so I’m going to approach my Weekly Wishes a bit differently this week.
1. Productivity: Make a list. Make lots of lists. Get everything written down. Keep using Evernote. LISTS.
2. Self-Care: Cut out bits of time to do things that make me happy. Read. Play guitar. Pet my cat. Watch TV. Blog. Stare at my cat. Seek out opportunities as a blogger. Bug my cat. Chat with my fellow fannish people in the IRC chats for Yuletide (private group and the general one). Did I mention my cat yet?
The purpose of both of these goals is to get me down from “overwhelmed, stressed out and violently frustrated” to “healthily whelmed and mildly functional.” I’d shoot for “calm and collected,” but I fear that would just be setting myself up for failure. I don’t think there’s any hope of that while my sister is still rooming with me. So I took a lorazepam (remind me to blog about my relationship with lorazepam) and kicked her out by opening a bottle of nail polish (she earned it this time. You know how my father has always insisted that I can only smell cigarette smoke in my head and therefore it’s not real that it makes me sick, and then he turns around and goes ballistic if we spray air freshener in his presence? Replace ‘cigarette smoke’ with ‘mayo’ and ‘air freshener’ with — ‘air freshener,’ actually, but ‘nail polish’ for certainty, and you’ve got my sister) and I’m striving for some manner of focus so I can start on those lists. I was just really knotted up yesterday and I was hoping I’d have Monday morning to recharge, but my sister stayed home from school and you know what, this is a story for another post. The lorazepam post.
For this one I’ll just say: goals. I have them. Do you? Link up on Melyssa’s blog!