This would be the time to do monthly goals for April, but I can’t handle that big a commitment, and to be honest, I forgot my March goals two days after I made them, and looking back, it seems I managed two, and I failed majorly at learning anything about time management.
Whatever. Baby steps. Sometimes I draft these posts in my head and the one thing that I always think is “get a grip,” and then I backspace slowly, thinking: no, not yet, that’s unrealistic.
SOME POSTS I WROTE SINCE MY LAST ROUND-UP
- 3/20: 10 Things: Ups And Downs Edition
- 3/24: Cat Lately + Furry Friend Tag
- 3/26: Twosday: Spring Flowers
- 3/27: Ask Me Anything*
- 3/30: 10 Things You Didn’t Know About Me
* Do not be fooled by the amount of comments on that post: I still need questions I can actually answer happily and positively in video form. All the — I hesitate to say dickbaggery, because I’m sure some of it was meant well somewhere behind the negativity, the piling on me, the snark and the assumptions (there were some comments I deleted, because constantly pointing out youth unemployment rates in London to someone who lives in a country with a 55%+ youth unemployment rate is… kind of misguided…), and some of it was fair — but anyway, all of that put me over 20,000 all-time views on my blog, which is somewhat of a bittersweet victory.
I would also like to note that it has nothing to do with the campaign-related goal I have set for this week. That was brought about by kindly worded advice from the OMH forums. What those comments did cause is the last 10 Things post on this list, which covers some stuff that was asked in both neutral ways and that way where the person asking the question is just accusing you in question form and you can tell because there’s no way you can actually answer the question unless you acquiesce into their viewpoint, which you don’t share so you’re not going to do that and they know it. Footnote over.
(Wait. One more thing. These are people from Etsy, I’m pretty sure. I figured out who a couple of people were, but I’d love to track the ridiculous amount of views back to a Twitter account, because most of them came from there. Is that possible? Also, you really only have to browse the forums a bit to know this, but seriously, y’all, Etsy is full of assholes. It’s kind of impressive and sad and I don’t think people realize this. The hypocrisy and douchebaggery may be a bigger problem than the resellers, and about the same size as the staff changing policies for the worse. I’m so hesitant to support Etsy people these days because so many of them are appallingly awful people. And I’m not talking about the ones who literally gave me nightmares about hostage situations!)
God, how do you blog and generally Internet without calling people out and pointing out negative stuff? I’m trying so hard, but I can’t stifle my activist streak. All I can do is focus it on other people (please click on that and follow the link it shares, it’s important) and matter-of-fact awareness, and not get personal in explicitly fundraising spaces. That’s going to have to be good enough.
My blog posts also seem to be getting increasingly stream-of-consciousnessy, which is comfortable and natural and makes it easier to blog when I’m mentally tired, but I’m also hesitant to allow myself to give that style free reign. Is it readable? Enjoyable? Should I stick to my Twitter accounts? Keep it half and half? I want it to be less hard for me to write up blog posts, but I also want this blog to be a pretty, for-profit thing.
…obviously just need to take more pictures. Speaking of which:
Okay, let’s not get sidetracked again. Weekly Wishes [Link-Up]
- Cultivate good sleeping habits. I keep saying this, and I keep failing, but at some point it’s got to stick, right? I’ve been up since 8 PM last night, so I’ll be tired tonight, and if I go to sleep before 11 PM, tomorrow I can actually get up when I inevitably wake up before 8 AM. It’s gotta happen sometime.
- Reframe my entire campaign. My plans are slowly coming together, or at least my idea of what I want is, and I need to focus on my work for strategic reasons and also so people stop thinking I’m trying to get money for nothing even though they have rewards (a catch-all crowdfunding word for “bookings and pre-orders”) staring them in the face. It’s clearly not clear enough, and definitely not profitable. Must change it up. Besides, I’m really liking the idea of heading to Oxford after London now. I need to commit all this to writing so people know about the open-ended-but-not-really goals I have.
- Take out the tripod and keep it out. Right between my guitar and Oxford’s treat bowl. It would go nicely there.
That’s it. I have other things to do, but I’m keeping them to myself and my Wunderlist. If you’re lucky, I may instagram the process! And that’s it for this post. Tell me I’m not alone in having trouble staying positive online. Or forgetting my monthly goals.
I’d really love some links about being an expat in the UK as well. I’ve got some, but the more, the more informed I’ll be! I’ve got to take the leap sometime, and it’s never going to be the most sensible decision. It just feels good (scary, but good scary) right now.