I’m stressed already.
No, I’m fine. Shut up, brain.
I’m comfortably ensconced in a corner at my Starbucks (“my” Starbucks = the one closest to me and the one I prefer out of the three within walking distance, happily enough/distressingly for my wallet) and July is nearly over, which means, among other things, that my self-imposed ban on flathunting is up on Friday. I’m not happy about this. On a scale of one to ten, I enjoy flathunting minus three million. Excuse me while I block all flathunting sites for another day before I do something stupid like kick off my tunnel vision ahead of time.
There. Where were we? It’s been three months since I moved to England. To the day. It feels like an age — I want to say it also feels like no time at all, but the truth is it does. It feels like a very, very long time despite not having got much accomplished yet. I don’t have a proper long-term lease, or a job, or financial stability, or flatmates lined up. I don’t have a camera bag and I don’t have a pair of flip-flops.
I do, however, have a new sense of myself and my work, a backlog of photos to edit and upload to various sites for various purposes, a ticket to Blogstock (what!), a proper website in the works that I won from AmeriCommerce, a modeling profile on PurplePort, design work to do, design work to share here, plans to revamp my blog design and categories, a renewed love for stretching and dancing, and, most important of all?
I fucking fixed my sleep schedule.
Did you ever think you’d see the day? I’m waking up early and actually getting up. I’m eating semi properly. I think my butt has actually grown a bit. (Or possibly my jeans have shrunk. But I doubt that.) My sex drive has reawakened as I go off paroxetine, but in a manageable way, which is a relief. I’ve had some ups and downs, but I’ve mostly been up. The one thing I’ve noticed is sometimes I see the big picture clearly, remember all the things I’ve got going on, and sometimes I feel utterly lost — and before now, that was easy to chalk up to whether I’d taken lorazepam (clear head) or not (anxiety-based fog), but now it’s a little unpredictable. Something that’s really helping, though, is taking weekends off from design work.
So here are my goals for August:
MONTHLY GOALS: AUGUST 2014 [link-up]
- Keep up the good sleep schedule, the healthy work schedule, and the stretching habit. Eat when hungry and try not to spend too much money.
- Get through my photo backlog. The entire thing, yes. Restock my Etsy shop and apply to a few stock photography websites.
- Get through my design work backlog. If I can’t do it in a month, I don’t know how I’ll ever manage.
- Revamp the blog and create a proper schedule, with posts going up every day Monday – Friday and possibly some on weekends. I certainly have the content, so I just need to get it together and schedule it.
- Schedule everything. It’s very important.
- And of course, find a place to live. The important thing here is to stick to my guns, think twice about things, and only go to flat viewings I feel really good about. Within walking distance preferably, among other things because I’d like to move within walking distance, but also because I don’t want to waste money and time.
So that’s the idea. I’m off to revise my to-do list accordingly.
How’s August shaping up for you?