(Pine needles because it’s a prickly sitch, you see. /terrible)
I’m not having a meltdown! I’m totally having a meltdown. Good news is I got out of the house when it was starting and came to Starbucks to work, so while my meltdown has been conducted, as usual, very much in public (social media public mostly), it has also been very productive. A friend booked some stock photography work from me, I got a logo design assignment from Elance, and I chased a few PRs as well as put out some pleas for help on various places. If you hate me for doing that kind of thing, chances are you already did, so this isn’t going to hurt things any.
So my weekly wish is: not lose it, and make £600 by Thursday. I’m at
£150 £220, so not good (but better than when I started this post a few hours ago). So here’s what I’m doing to accomplish those hefty goals:
- Camp out at the library/cafés where I know I can get work done (i.e. not the Starbucks on Hampstead High St no matter how late it closes. The lighting is terrible and I don’t feel secluded enough. South End Rd Starbucks is good, and so is the Waterstones on Hampstead High St).
- Make lists and go through them with a “one thing at a time and one thing after the other” attitude.
- Stay fed and hydrated (less coffee, dose out the lorazepam, iced vanilla lattes over other drinks).
- Not schedule any unpaid work until next week.
- Spending ban: I’m not even setting a budget for groceries. Just spend as little as possible until rent is paid, and then budget. Eat the food I have.
- Take short breaks in the form of things that count as “keeping busy” i.e. keeping my mind on my work: Pinterest, blog-reading.
- Read before bed. Maybe even an actual book! Take my mind off things before sleep, essentially.
- Beg some more, probably. But in an organized, scheduled way so there aren’t actual tears involved.
And, I guess, not go to sleep too late, which I’m already pushing. But it’s not like going to sleep early seems to help any with the motivation problem. You know what does? Weirdly enough, phone calls. Having to call a bank, a government thing, a therapy office and a physio office in quick succession makes one feel all accomplished. I need to call back the therapy thing because my phone rang when I was at Starbucks, and I’ll be getting a call about physiotherapy between 1 and 2 PM on Thursday. My new NIN appointment is on July 16 at 10:55 AM, and it looks like I can get there by heading down Haverstock Hill and just walking straight southeast for a year and a half (okay, thirty-six minutes). It’s next week, so maybe I won’t feel guilty taking a bus. But the walk could be interesting. It’s certainly straightforward.
So here’s to more productivity and less tachycardia. And also more blog posts! As always, if you want to help out, feel free to sponsor the blog, hire me as a designer, buy a print, or book me as a photog! You could even potentially buy rights to one of my photos for web use, or hire me to get some specific ones like my friend Marcia did.
And on the other side of the coin, if there’s any way I can help you, let me know.