Remember when I did these posts on a actual weekly basis? Yeah, I’m getting back to them. A lot of my upcoming content is standalone and not-time-specific rather than personal, so I’m taking a page from Nadine and dedicating a day to updating you all on the state of my life, same day every week — even if it’s not always the only time my life makes an appearance on the blog.
A 25 Before 25 List Update
A couple of weeks ago I finally finished and published my 25 Before 25 “bucket” list. Some of the items on that list are actively being worked on (catching up on design work, getting through my photography backlog, writing out a blog schedule, getting my inbox down to zero, clearing my ‘read later’ bookmark folder), and some are… being worked on in a weird tangential, possibly backwards way. To wit: instead of reading a book (fiction or non) or picking up a TV show, I watched a movie. This still counts as progress because it’s me making time for consuming media solely for the purpose of enjoying myself, and that’s a step in the right direction.
The one I’m not sure is a step in the right direction is what I’ve done with my sleep schedule. After a few disasters, I got up late on Saturday, took 5mg of lorazepam, and gave up. See, I keep trying to make myself get up early, and go to bed early, and I fail without exception. It’s terrible and it makes me feel bad — disappointed in myself, guilty, stressed. On Saturday, I realized I didn’t have a reason to get up early anymore as I’m actually more comfortable and more productive in my new room at night — before this, I always loved the feeling of morning at my desk, but I don’t care for it very much here. It feels less cold at night. I’m looking forward to winter, actually, just for the shorter days.
On Saturday, I woke up late and I told myself that it was fine. I thought, it doesn’t matter when I get up as long as I do, and I get shit done when I do. It’s pointless and painful to set myself up for disappointment every single night. I need to give into my body and let it just sleep and get up naturally, if only so I can have a proper idea of what it needs without the pressure of forcing it into a standard schedule. Tons of things don’t work for me the way they do for other people; maybe it’s time I figure out what does with sleep.
So I may well have properly failed that goal already. If this works for me, I’m calling it a win.
Other Things I Did
I wrote some posts. I thought about poetry and reread some of my old work. I edited some pictures (see below for more on this). I made time for fanfic. I cooked chicken in the oven and didn’t set anything on fire and it was good! I also bought raw bacon and eggs, haven’t dared make them yet. I haven’t used a frying pan in a year. Now that I know the oven does work — I’ve also been baking half-baked baguettes on a regular basis; the only thing that’s been tricky is corn on the cob — and I can spend a little more money on groceries because I’m paying rent weekly and saving on Starbucks (I’ve finally adapted to my new desk) I’m thinking about attempting to bake. Start cheap, with cream biscuits probably, which I’ve made many times before, and make my way up to pies (this one maybe. Smitten Kitchen is my go-to recipe blog). I may well blog it. My eating habits are simple and picky and lazy and boring, but it can’t hurt. It probably won’t hurt my wallet, either. I buy a lot of sweet things.
I was actually thinking about starting a series calling these posts A Lazy Eater’s Diet Staples (and A Lazy Eater Goes to [Café/Restaurant]) but I don’t actually want to call myself [adjective] Eater so that’s a bust. Fun idea, free to a good home. I’ll just use my name instead, and warn people that I’m boring in the copy.
I also got cappuccino, decaf, which is helping me miss Starbucks less. I need a teaspoon. And a mug, probably. And a laundry hamper.
I’d like to post every day. I have most of the content ready: photos from a shoot with my friend Bethany on a boat (the ones from the photographer, which I had to edit for web as his web-ready edits were too small and had a giant watermark on them; there will be another two posts with photos from my camera that I set up and Bethany took, and behind-the-scenes photos and notes, but I’ve only edited one of those so far); 50 photos from a walk around Crouch End, which were going to be posted all under “A Walk Around Crouch End” but it’s 50 photos, do I need to break them up? How do I break them up? I tried to paginate my #bloggersfestival post and it didn’t work. I’ve got a sponsored post and would like to put up an outfit, though I need to pick a set of pictures and edit them for that. I have a number of things to review.
When I went to withdraw my rent and stock up on chocolate this afternoon, I kind of decided on a place to be my very first café feature on the blog. Think I may even order food there. I haven’t chosen my first place to photograph and write about for another project, but I’ve sent a couple of emails to that end.
I need to write comprehensive lists. I keep starting and getting stuck because I’ve got so much in my head. I think the most terrifying list — the one breaking down my photography backlog in small batches — will be less terrifying if I set a goal to edit 10 pictures every day. So I’m going to do that.
I’m also going to think about TV. It sounds silly, but really. I have to. I need to check out what’s new this fall, and what’s going on with all the shows I fell behind on. I miss The Good Wife, which I stopped watching just before my second favorite character started getting proper screentime, and it would be nice to indulge that fictional character crush. (My second favorite character was/is Cary. After Alicia, naturally. I ship them together, too.) I miss Pretty Little Liars. I miss being into things. It was nice. Painful, sometimes, but nice. Also thinking maybe one of these days I’ll finish watching The Lizzie Bennett Diaries, now that I’m not all caught up in it emotionally and no longer care that they did the stupidest goddamn things re: Lydia’s storyline, and possibly watch Emma Approved. And gymnastics? Lots of stuff waiting for me, as you can see. My USB stick is going to get a workout, I am determined.
It would be great to catch up on email, make a Read This post with links from my bookmarks and write up some email templates. Keep editing pictures. Keep designing. Pick up a modeling gig, if I can find one. Write some more posts. Finish the one I’ve had running around my head for two months. I may try to spend time with someone other than myself, if I can swing that. Anyone want to check out the café I picked for my feature with me? It’s near Belsize Park and has pretty standard coffeehouse prices.
Meanwhile, I’ll continue to hope really hard that my website doesn’t take much longer to be completed, and maybe start redesigning my own blog via mockup instead of by searching for themes and going straight into the CSS. I want what I want. It’s very important.
So how was your week? Any exciting plans for this one?